Melissa

#64

2012-01-31T11:43:00.003+08:00

Work nowadays is hard to find. Is it really because the economy is bad? Well, there seems to be mixed reactions on this. However, I do notice people aren't speaking much of it as compared to the situation in 2008. We are, in fact, more concerned with the malfunction of public transport and drainage systems and new-fangled technolgy, spending endlessly, rather than scrimping up for the rainy days that we ourselves predict.

Well, that's just my observation for the day. I'm going to post daily observations here. There's not much analysis on this so I might add on another day, leave your comments :)

#63

2011-11-22T20:31:00.002+08:00

Ah...

JC passes by in a blink of an eye.
Next Thursday will be the last time I enter the school officially as a student.
We have graduated, but have to return for A levels, so yes, our last day as students will be our last day of exams.
Due to the way the timetable is structured, my first exam was most likely on the first day of the entire GCE A levels and my last paper is next Thursday. Papers are not evenly spread out during this time as my papers were crammed into the first week of the exams before having 2 papers the following week and another paper yesterday. The final 2 papers are MCQ papers and i'm given 1 week to prepare for it...
It just drags the wait...
This year's papers were extrodinarily hard....
:(

bye now :)

#62

2011-11-05T22:07:00.002+08:00

Yea! changed blogskin again :)

Zzz.... 3 days to A levels and I don't feel like studying because of the stress. I don't work well under stress...

Removed all the links I used to have because not many update their blogs nowadays so do leave me a message if you wanna be linked :)

Thinking of reviving this blog, not that it has been very alive before. What is considered alive? If I constantly update? Or if a lot of people view it? I'll be brainstorming for ideas for the main topic for the blog. Anyone who happens to see this can contribute :)

That's all!

#61

2010-05-07T21:44:00.002+08:00

Hi!

Sick today. Asked Mandy to submit PI for me this morning and am really grateful to her.

The medicine the doctor gave me made me really drowzy. Think that's the reason for this gibberish. I slept and lazed around for the whole of today, too tired to move. Today's weather was really warm and I perspired quite a bit while I slept. Couldn't really feel the wind from the fan as it was too far away I guess. I didn't want to turn on the air-con either. It was probably the trigger to my sickness anyway.

That's all my heavy head has to say for now. I'm going back to sleep soon... :)

#60

2010-05-02T21:31:00.004+08:00

Hey!
Blogging again.
Mum and Dad are in Taiwan for a holiday so I've got some free time :)
Celebrated Aidan, Char, Melanie's birthday yesterday and also wished MewL happy birthday:)

It's amazing how many people have their birthdays during the same period of time. Oh, and not to mention Duckie's birthday tommorrow. So here's a great Happy Birthday to all end April and start of May babies :)

I just changed my blog skin today. Mediocre effort really, compared to what I used to do in Sec 1. Quite upset now that I deleted it. I thought it was simple effort to reconstruct a blog, but only now do I realise that I've deleted my memories of various mood swings and the feelings I had when I first created my blog.

I'm still hoping that more people will see this, though I'm not sure why. It's not like I'd want to busy myself by replying to people the entire day, I guess it's more like I feel that I'm talking to someone. So, if you're here, do say hi :)

I'm feeling kind of lost now. There's so much work that I can't even remember what I'm supposed to do...

PW is quite a challenging task, and many would think I'm bonkers to say that I like it. It's mixed feelings actually. I don't exactly enjoy the stress I'm placed under to formulate ideas, but I enjoy it as it's the closest to what I've experienced in secondary school, and I really, really miss that. Our PW teacher reminds me of my art teacher. Both of them place great stress on us, emphasizing on the technique of how to improve, rather than giving us the answers straight away. I've never been good in coming up with ideas and only 1 in 20 of my ideas make sense. However, I'm still grateful to both my teachers for their patience in impatience, to bear with my slow idea generation.

PW shows a lot about students who have just graduated from secondary school really. Perhaps it's thanks to Mdm Zee that I'm 'trained' to work hard in effort to answer to expectations. Nearly all students complain about PW, but it's those who wait to be told and daren't venture out for fear of being rejected who will lose out. Many students stop their research at superficial levels for fear of doing 'excess work', rejected by their teachers.

Well, that's all from me for now. All the best to Song. Heard he's goin back to New Zealand. Everyone remember to bid him goodbye kae?
:)

#59

2010-04-23T18:21:00.003+08:00

Heys!
Didn't think I'd be posting at this period of time.

Ran, or re-ran, my 2.4km NAPFA test today and YES! I failed again..... Haix... I took so long to pack my clothes yesterday and woke up early today, just to fail it again the second time this year.... My timing improved though, from 19min+ to 17.01 today... approximately 2min. Now that's encouraging. I'll probably be able to pass if I'm allowed to take it next week. -- or maybe not...

Watched the school concert today. It was good. Quite comparable to an outside performance and the lecture theater appeared very different as compared to usual time when we have lessons. It was simply amazing. I'm feeling quite tired now, so pardon the lack of enthusiasm in tone. :)

Going to meet PD later for dinner. It's raining heavily though, wonder how I'll go out in it...

Oh wells, TaTaS! Though I know no one reads this... Gotta get back to my work.

#58

2010-03-21T21:43:00.002+08:00

Haha!
It's the end of holidays now.
Will probably be the june hols before I decide to blog again :)
Well, sorry about what I said about posting regularly then:)

Hmmm.... One thing I find quite interesting, my econs teacher said he tracks all or most of our blogs. So, if you're reading this Mr Phay, HI!! remember to tag! :)

Haha, shall 'record' the things I did this march:) I had an extended birthday, starting last mon to the fri that just passed. That would be about 2 weeks. Oh, Jingyi and Dionne still owes me my present! AH and Moo's rabbit is currently nodding on my table (:P) Char din give me present this year..... Duckie's prezzie was quite a surprise, she got me a ball that can bounce HIGH and bubble blowing thingy :D love it

Went for Alice in Wonderland at Illuma with AH. Dumb Moo moo said it wasn't nice and adviced us against it. Glad that we didn't listen to her :P It was a FANASTIC movie:) the Hatter's expression was so cute! Listening to their conversations is a must to get the joke. I LOVE TIM BURTON!!! He's such an awesome director, making shows filled with black humour:)

Then, I went for breakfast with Char and karaoke and bowling with Duckie and Ger on fri. Time spent with Char was quite weird now that I think about it. We were climbing on the stool and jumping up and down, around the pushcart she was supposed to setup in search for the keys to open the cupboards and we finally found it in the cash register.... -_- Karaoke was quite fun though I was usually the one who went off tune. And HOORAY! Kbox has KAT-TUN songs! Shall go sing it with AH one day though the choices are limited:) We were lucky I made a booking for bowling as it was really crowded. There were nearly 10 parties on waiting list. It would be better to say that my game got better as time passed. In other words, it was down right lousy :) The highest score I've reached was about 78 I think, a huge difference from the times when I played with my sister last year. Really glad that my sister wasn't there coz she would have beat me by probably double :)

Oh well, time to get prepared for school tmr. I'm trying to shoo the school blues away :)

Bye and remember to tag! :D

#57

2010-01-22T20:18:00.003+08:00

Hey!
T'is been a long time since I blogged consecutively for 2 days :)

Went to the national museum today with AH, cow, and melanie to see the egyptian exibition. We went in for free as it is free for students :)

It was quite creepy at first as it was very dark and they played eerie music in the background. Despite that, we all enjoyed it very much. It started of with some warm up activities like folding origami in a pyramid, which AH had quite some trouble doing, and printing. Other interesting attractions include coffins, statues and mummies. However, there is nothing much to be afriad of as there are only mummies of animals like baby crocodiles, cats and birds. Human mummies are fully wrapped up, hence no part of the body can be seen. X-rays of the mummies are displayed on the wall nearby to aid visitors in visualising the inside of the mummy.

After visiting the exibition, we went to Fort Canning Park for walk and had a drink at a building there. Then, AH and I made melanie and cow climb up and down and around Fort Canning hill, finally arriving at the Clark Quay exit. AH and I then shared a Turkish ice-cream which cost us $5 in total. It had really bright colors which I suspect is coloring and a really chewy, sticky texture. We stopped at Liang Court where we browsed around Kinokunia for magazines.Cow and Melanie went off earlier to go home for dinner while me and AH went down to Bugis for dinner at KFC:)

Yupp, that's all for today then. [Photos might be posted here on another day]
Ja na!

#56

2010-01-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

Phew!
I've finally finished my job - distributing flyers:)

This is my second time I've been distributing flyers, both times for Kopitiam. I'm personally glad that it was discount coupons that I was supposed to distribute as it's relatively easier to distribute compared to brochures.

I feel that distributing flyers is a physically tiring job but still worth a try. While distributing flyers, I learn more about the different kinds of people there are out there. One might be puzzled as to why I say this is so. Well, I get to know more about them by the different ways they accept or reject the flyers. Some accept or refuse the flyers with a polite smile, nod or shake of the head. Sadly, there are others who ignore you totally, giving an aloof look should they happen to make eye contact with you. This act usually upsets me, even more so when others follow suite.

Someone once asked me how many pedestrians would accept the flyers after taking one from me. Being in a hurry to continue with my work, I replied that the majority would accept the flyers. I gave much thought to that question later on in my free time and my estimate was that about 50% of the people offered would accept the flyers, though the percentage would most probably differ in different places and situations. For example, giving flyers at the entrance of an escalator would usually have more people accepting as they can read it while on the escalator and conveniently throw it into the dustbin located at the other end.

Lastly, I feel that we should all be "gracious and civillised people"[quoted from ms chan XD] Though we are paid to give out flyers, I hope that everyone can be polite when refusing or accepting flyers and the same goes for those distributing the flyers.

'A friendly look, a kindly smile, one good act, and life's worthwhile.' ~Author Unknown
I've just found this in the web and feel it's really meaningful, a smile is a symbol of joy and happiness, so who wouldn't want one? :)

I've got to catch some sleep now, remember to tag! It really is quite a bother to get a new code every time my account expires because it's been inactive for too long :)
CYA!

#55

2010-01-16T16:01:00.009+08:00

!yeH
Haha. Trying to be funny... Went karaoke and cycling yesterday. Paid $4 each for the K and it was totally worth it, meaning that since it was so cheap, the service was as bad.... Cycling was relatively cheaper, $6/3hr at east coast causing me a muscle ache now, though it isn't as bad as I thought it would be. Hmmm.... It might be thanks to my sister's massage that my muscles don't ache so much. She gives good massages :)

We basically met at 8.30am for the K and realised that they only opened at 11am, so we just sat around the yatch club reading Char's jap HW and playing word games while waiting for it to open. The lady's knowledge about service was relatively challenged, leaving us with an unpleasant impression of her.

Char left early as she had jap class. AH, Moo and me then went to ECP to cycle. We snacked as we went along, AH and Moo on a double bike, me on a single. I honestly had zero coordination with AH so I gave up on the idea of riding with her:)

Okay, enough typin, here are some of the photos we took yesterday. They're probably also posted on facebook at AH's page coz I sent her all of it :)

Phew... that was tiring.... I hate uploading photos... :)

Bye now!

#54

2010-01-12T12:54:00.003+08:00

Hey Heys!

I've got back my results for o's. Not gonna talk much abt it, jus gonna say that I'm goin poly. It's a mid-score.

Let's see, sentosa last fri was......
->fun coz we were there
->boring coz there was nth much to do
->hot (coz of the sun????)
->upsetting coz I got bitten by an ant.
Here, I'd lik to elaborate..... It was an unbreezy day at the beach...... We were playing/practicing volleyball in the shade when IT came to bite me. Then I realised that I was standing/stepping in their way. Anyway, my toe was feeling really painful and when I bent to take a closer look, I found..(drum roll)... the ant DEAD. Not that I pitied it anyway.... I mean, it bit me! Well, it was a medium sized red ant for those interested, and I started running my foot in water at the open shower. Oh, and abt the open shower, it was like a blessing from heaven, an oasis in the desert, a..... You get what I mean.... It relieved the heat for us making the heat more managable and I of course thank the light rain which came along later but didn't manage to drench us :)

Sadly, we didn't take many photos so here are the rare few! :)

byez!

#53

2010-01-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

heys!

Results for o'levels are coming out next monday.
Awwww..... It's so soon its terrible!

Anyway, 4D's Sentosa outing's tomorrow! WHOOHOO!!! Hope that the majority will turn up. One of the reasons i lik our class so much is coz the outings are relatively cheaper in price:)) What I mean is most other classes have chalets and bbqs which total up to quite a lot and very little food. :)
Ahh... gonna love Sentosa tmr. Really excited abt it :)

Oh ya, sincerest apologies to HIGH FLYERS as I can't go for the K. It's becoz, as I mentioned before, of the cost. Why do I sound like a miser? Coz, I'm officially broke.... :)

Leaving for dinner now so bye!

#52

2010-01-05T11:46:00.004+08:00

hihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihhihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihihi

ok, u get it....
I was just saying HI!
lolx, think I missed an 'i' there, oh well, not goin to change it. nobody reads the blog anyway :D

Let's see, I've nothing much to say anyway, just plain bored.... Ahhh... the feeling of having hols when others are having school...... u only feel happy that you don't have to wake up early. It's kinda sad, like lonely feeling, like u can't actually dread school and telling yourself that the only consolation are your friends who will suffer in school with you. Trust me it's sad to have nothing to dread or look forward to.

well, here's an example of how bored I am, I don't mind doin the housework anymore, and the fact is I dreaded it in the past. Like i'd rather study than do housework....

another thing abt this period of time is that u hav almost nth to blog abt like me now.... you will feel lik u're having an emotional block but that's not it, there just aren't any events for you to feel abt!

ugh.... fine, I've got nth else to blabber abt, so bye! :)

#51

2009-01-24T11:38:00.003+08:00

Heys!

Been back from Beijing for about.... 24-9...... 15days. LLOL XD

Missing Beijing coz it was real slack there, playing the whole day and stuff like that. :)

We met up with NH again yesterday but it was kinda sad that only samuel and yangle turned up.

Really wanted to meet up with ying ying , mew leng and the others.

Too bad they couldn't make it due to various reasons.....

The venue was changed from city hall to TM as movie seats were all sold out.

After much debate and walking up and down TM, we finally bought tickets for 'Bride War' and ate at KFC as it was too crowded everywhere else.

Hmmm...

A/few comments on the movie.

The plot wasn't exactly fantastic but wasn't exactly predictable as erm....

Ok let me give u an example.

Say the character in the show was born dumb and they showed how he worked hard and studied. You would expect the out come to be that he would score very well despite being dumb, but what would happen is that he would still score very badly for his exams, simply because he is dumb.

Ya so thats why I said the plot was 'unpredictable'

Here's a brief over view of what it's about.

Two best friends, namely Emma and Liz, fight for a day where both of them want to have their wedding.

Now wasn't that brief?

lol

Goin off now, so tatas!

oh and,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!

#50

2008-12-09T19:40:00.003+08:00

Money Money Money

Can I be your caddy?

I don care if I fatty,

I wannabe caddy.

Nanny Nanny Nanny

Poem is by my dear sister Genevieve. Haha. I'm currently in Beijing, she wrote that for me. I really miss her. It feels weird not to be able to hug her fat and round little body.

Lots of blogging to keep up with so tata!

#49

2008-11-29T14:43:00.004+08:00

Heys!

Mum Dad and Sis are back from genting. The past few days when they weren't around was awfully quiet. The silence was eased a little when I played music with the speakers. When they came back, I couldn't stop myself from blabbering away on what I did for the three days as there was finally someone I could talk to at home after so long.

My performance was yesterday. It was a combined performance by guitar, harmonica and dance. I felt that we were somewhat sidelined though, because we did not perform very much. Then again if you look at it from the organiser's point of view, it wasn't really their fault as we had limited dancers and time to prepare for more items.

I loved my costume, hairdo and probably everything else given to me. It's probably due to the fact that I usually wear this style of clothes. Everyone had glittery eyeshadow which was a new experience for me as well as the person applying it for me. Anqi smsed me after the opening to ask which one was me but my dear cousins who were there told me that they knew which was me at a glance. They thought I was wearing my home clothes. :)

Ms Zee had to fly off to Hong Kong yesterday and could not make it for our performance but gave everyone a lollipop with a golden ribbon tied on for good luck. It was sad that I did not get to see her out of VJ, after all the next time I'd meet her would be after school starts. Mr Ben surprised us by buying a stand of flowers and dedicating it to the dancers on a card with words of encouragement. Each and everyone of the dancers were also given a pink rose from Mr Ben.

Anqi also surprised me with a fake flower she probably bought in mass for me, Jing Hiang and her other friends. Haha. I got a yellow lily from her and I think Jing Hiang would get the white. Priscilla had intended to buy flowers for me but did not in the end. I knew she was joking anyway. Shermaine received a lot of chocolate and sweets from her friends and joked about it being fattening.

I believe it was a wonderful performance by everyone, though mum said there were a few who did not smile. I think that they were too tense and since they did not have the habit of smiling during practices as well, they ended up looking like grumpy little girls. :)

That's all for today! Enjoy the following pictures. :)

the flowers I received

Rui ting came back to visit

Me Val and Sincere sec 3,2,1 lolx!

Mr Bevan's message to us

The flowers he sent us

#48

2008-11-22T19:41:00.005+08:00

Back again!

20 days since I last posted. I'm home alone now lolx. Anyone watched that movie? I watched it on channel 5 when I was young :) It's a hillarious show about this young boy who was left at home alone because his parents forgot to bring him with them when they went overseas. While being home alone, the young boy meets some burgulars and takes responsibility in 'protecting' his house from them by setting traps all around his house, outwitting the burgulars.

Anyway, nothing like that is going to happen to me though. So far I've spent the day by going to SUNTEC convention center with cuifen and then returned home to pack up and ate pastamania for dinner. I met a number of people today, 'met' being that it was by chance. First was Fiona, Tracy and uncle meng. Cuifen and I were looking for something to eat for lunch, when this cafe-like place caught my attention and I looked in. As we continued walking towards mcdonalds, Tracy called me to say she saw me. So I back tracked and found the three of them having lunch together. Later on the way to the bus stop home, I met Jing Hiang and Lynette probably shopping in suntec. As I was halfway through my dinner in the evening, I met Yue Yun jiejie. She had cut her hair to just below the ear and it suited her well.

The anime convention today was disappointing, for me at least. Nothing really caught my interest. Cuifen and I were originally supposed to meet Junyao and Anghong there but we were too bored to stay till 3 when they would come. Anyways, it was fun watching Cuifen apply her makeup and do her cosplay. Oh, and I forgot to charge her for helping to carry her bag everytime someone wanted a photo of or with her. Here's a photo of her outfit today as hell girl.

#47

2008-11-02T21:50:00.010+08:00

heys!

Feeling lazy to post. O level chinese coming. Think I'm the only one studying hehe... Don't laugh. My chinese is terrible unless I study, I'll surely fail... Lolx

Sentosa was some time ago but I'll still upload the photos :) It was really fun hanging out for the whole day like that with about 30 of them. We went to Siloso Beach by monorail. Okay so enough crapping, here are the pics.

#46

2008-10-23T15:38:00.002+08:00

Hey!

Back for another post. hahas. Today is the last day of school. Did some spring cleaning, listen to a few 'last' speeches and got back our results. One interesting fact we found out during spring cleaning was that the paint used for the walls was soluble in water, thus causing it to come off the wall, leaving patches on the walls.

We're going to sentosa tomorrow! 3D outing! WAHOO! There was supposed to be 2 batches to Sentosa. One at 9am and the other at 1pm. The second batch was initially for those who had cca but because those without cca wanted more sleep, we decided to go together in the 1pm batch.

kk byes for now!

#45

2008-10-13T09:49:00.004+08:00

Exams are over. Finally decided to post after it finished on friday.

I planned to rollerblade on friday but was too engrossed with the computer, so it was pushed to saturday. I was too lazy to go out on saturday so it was postponed to sunday. I was sleepy on sunday afternoon so i ended up not going at all.

Today is a Monday. I am in school. Question: why can I use the computer? Because we're supposed to have mini olympics and our dear CCA pres didn't hand in the form, therefore, no one is involved. ::)

Been watching Gokusen 1,2,3 for the past few days I played computer. Half way through gokusen 3. It's really nice in my opinion. The events are somehow repeated though in the three shows. Hmmm... personal observation-actors in gokusen 1 is better looking than 2 and both are better than 3. Actors acting in gokusen have nice hairstyles. For example, when Shun Oguri acted in Hana Kimi as Sano, he looked pretty average compared to Gokusen as Uchiyama Haruhiko.

Oh and sorry if you have problems tagging, I don't even think the board is there for that matter. I'll try to solve the problem soon.[or maybe when I feel like it]

Ja ne!

#44

2008-09-26T17:26:00.003+08:00

Hey back to post.

Gonna start doing my art observational work after this post. I've been looking for inspiration on the internet for art. I chose the topic connection and my statement is basically about unselfish love within a family.

I came across this poem in deviant art, thought it was nice, so here it is.

Love is a game
just meant to be played.
Love is a phrase
just overly clichéd.

It's dominated by cheaters,
players, and rule-breakers.
Where three words often said
are lies spoken by fakers.

Love is an emotion
and hormones are the cause.
Love is perfection
that brings out your flaws.

Young ones are swayed
into believing that it's real.
Soon concious of mistakes,
next fear is what you feel.

Love is a wish
desired by so many loners.
Love is a sight
shown off by its owners.

It's a sad pathetic world
when love is only wanted,
for the sake of having it,
and for it to be flaunted.

Love is a drug,
addictive and strong.
Love is a toy.
and you're strung along.

The endings are painful,
yet again you will start,
to end with more lies and tears,
and another cruelly broken heart.

Love is a reason
to be treated like dirt.
Love is an excuse,
an excuse to get hurt.

Not that I agree with it. I just like the rhythm and, well, if it prevents people from getting unwanted hurt then why not heed it? Then again, life is a bed of thorny roses, there are many things that can hurt you in many different ways. If you are to guard against all of them, then life would be miserable. Anyway, one question before I end this post, why do people only warn of the hurt behind BGR and not others like friendship, money, etc...

That's all for today! Byezzzzzzzzzzzz

#43

2008-09-19T20:47:00.000+08:00

Back!!!

Paper 1 today. Both english and chinese. I'm quite confident of my english composition but it really depends on whether the teacher likes my style. Chinese composition was not as good. The topics were hard. I ended up doing a yi4 lun4 wen2. Die liao lor. Tuition teacher gonna scold me again. Then again, i wouldn't know what to write for the other topics. Another bad thing would be that I forgot to bring my chinese dictionary.

Ate fillet-o-fish burger without tar-tar sauce for lunch today. Not bad. Guess the reason as to why I don't like Mcdonald's fillet-o-fish was due to the sauce.

*sighs* gotta finish my art. Clifton and Godwin make me go tell Mdm Zee that we didn't bring our art to school on their behalf so that should there be any scolding, I would get it on their behalf..... Luckily for me Mdm Zee was in a super good mood so no scolding! YIPPEE! She let me look at the sec 4's work and then asked me AH ZE and bear which final was the best and which course work was best. Me, ZE and bear thought Xuan Dian's was best and she said fashion design usually has more appeal. AH thought yantze's was best. For course work, we all thought yantze's was best as it was most organised. Xuan Dian and Yuan Man's course work had a lot of drawings but did not show the development of their images.

That's all for today! Feed back on the skin. I've used this before and am reusing it now. :)

#42

2008-09-17T19:37:00.001+08:00

Long break for the posts.

I know I should be studying but.... haha, temptation. Gonna change my skin after this post. Getting bored of it. I decided I should probably post more hehe...

Hmmm.... I've got art tomorrow. Haven't finished my homework how? A number of them thinking of ponning, shan't name who. Mdm Zee checks blogs. Then again, not many know that I actually have a blog.... Is it a blessing in disguise? Hehe. Mdm Zee is damn fierce, scold the sec 1 until they speechless. Too bad for them, she believes that nothing is fair in this world and so does not give them (nor us) 'much' time to explain. Not that this affects me, I usually don't have reasons.

Hope it won't be long before the next post, think I'll post more during the eoy hols. I'm going to China, beijing again haha. The trip last year was fun, so that probably explains everything. :)

#41

2008-06-20T18:26:00.000+08:00

Loooooooooooooooooooooooong time never post. wonder if i will post more if i change the skin....

homework is pouring down on us. there's a new timetable now. the worst of it is double Amaths followed by double Emaths on Monday....... PE is on thurs. mr lim taking us. get to see him 3 times that day coz he's also taking us for maths.

something funny that happened. my sister pretended to wear a baby's shoe at the shoe shop the other day. the sales man saw her and scolded her. hmmm.... people today are so 'gullible' they believe everything they see even though it makes zero sense...... or maybe it's the stress.

#40

2008-02-28T13:09:00.000+08:00

long time nvr blog....
nobody came anyways lolx
crapping for a while here then.
free time what....
last post was last year nov or dec.....
not very accurate though,
i didn set the date properly
pris b'day is tomorrow
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
finally 4 years old
haha....
art later...
we weren't informed
not many brought art
what to do?
no use going if no materials right?
think think think think.....
dunno...
borrow?
sit and stare?
truant?
haix..
i wonder....
wanted to watch match
see if shane is playing for nee ann
guess i can't now
or maybe i can?
if lesson ends early
people are getting irritating
luckily their going out together
i'm not being surrounded by them
miss yvonne
never appreciated her a lot
used to push all the work to her
wish i can still do that.
she was the only one i could vent my frustrations on
without needing to apologise to her
she understood that it didn't mean anything
thanks yvonne
if you read this
even if you did it unconciously
thanks

#39

2007-11-25T22:51:00.000+08:00

YoZ!
was thinking of postin as i said on the tag board. my internet security was down so i couldn't use. oh wells.. nothing much to say anyway. i just finished watchin 'moon phase' and watchin 'heartful days' now, borrowed from my cousin. couldn't finish 'trinity blood' though can't seem to find it anymore. lookin for its comic version. haha. i realised u can find info on prince of tennis in wikipedia lolx. i was really surprised. oh well kinda late. KINDA. supposed to sleep now but since mum hasn't given THE word i'll continue crappin for a while. ahhh... jus my luck she jus said it. bye then! if anyone is readin. tagg ok? even if its jus a hi. at least i noe tat someone actually sees this.

#38

2007-11-03T13:01:00.000+08:00

hey!
my sister's birthday party's today! haha. celebrating it early. i drew a picture for her. quite happy with the drawing.
shall upload some photos of nelson's wedding. after all, tracy and fiona have already done that. not many photos of the bride and groom though. my phone jus can't focus properly on them. wonder if its a coincidence?...
oh well!!

enjoy....

the wedding couple!!!
one yue yun acting cute =p
one happy tracy
one bored fiona
nelson [groom]

mum and dad at dinner after wedding

aunt and uncle at dinner after wedding

linda with head band

ok a photo of what i drew for my sister. try not to make comments whether good or bad. i like to admire things myself without other opinions. :)

i truely doubt that any one will spare a second glance at it anyway.

#37

2007-10-31T18:11:00.000+08:00

yay!

3rd day of work. now posting in the office. linda jie jie said i very hardworking start work on the first day of holidays. lolx. quite fun la. sit in aircon remove staple bullets scan into com..... relaxed work that dosen require the brain. if only i can work through life this way.....

nelson gor gor's wedding jus passed. it was really exciting. they had their solemnism(???) at merchant court's pool side. we (children) sat behind the VIP seats during the lunch, getting one of the best views. i played the montage, feeling awkard that i was the only one standing as the numerous guests stared at my unintended misconduct.

nelson gor gor also treated us to dinner after the wedding lunch at central which would have cost them a bomb. they(nelson and luwei) have changed into their casual clothes which was a lot more comfortable.

end of my post.

#36

2007-10-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

dear reader,

weird start but i feel that way. walked down 3 or 4 bus stops jus now before taking a bus home. no, i wasn't forced. i jus felt like walking. i thought a lot as i walked. mostly about my feelings. i did not feel exactly lonely but i envied those passerbys with people for company. i wondered why. it was a long time since i had such a long train of thoughts and i think i know why. i walked all the way from school down to the mrt station and from there walked down the street towards the direction of bedok mrt station and only boarded the bus when my legs could not hold out any more. i thought long and hard. it dosen't feel like the last day of school today. life was hectic with the usual dreading of cca. it just doesen't feel lik the last day of school, it just doesen't.

i saw a group of primary school students with their dare devil faces. unafraid of anything. i wonder why.weren't they afraid that they would get a scolding for reaching home so late or causing disturbance to the people at the bus stop? then i realised that they were all aquaintances. so what? u may ask. but i'll tell u that the saying goes that there is power in numbers. they're protected by their friends, giving each other a sense of security. that, i know is something good about numbers. nothing can threaten you.

i lack these.....numbers. no sense of security is given. nevertheless, i feel safe. why? i feel safe. as long as there are humans around me. homosapiens of any kind is enough. parents teach children: don't talk to strangers but strangers too give me a sense of sercurity, sometimes even more than the people whom i know. simply because i don't know them.

#35

2007-10-10T20:30:00.000+08:00

haha
exams over! finally! lolz. long time nvr post liao. hehe. tomorrow playin tennis with char. wasn't vry interested in tennis at first den ltr watch prince of tennis den start to like it. the way they play makes it look so easy lor. haix... if only de real thing is so easy. i remember de last time i play can't even surf de ball with one hand. wonder if its coz the racket too heavy or i no strength? think its the latter:)

thinking of changing blogskin. dunno what kind of theme though.... thought of prince of tennis but later gotta change it when i don lik it any more. one things for sure, its gonna be anime. hmmm..... shall go skin hunting after this :) unlike com pros, i find my skins online.

ok gtg tatas!

wonder when will my nxt post be.......

#34

2007-08-11T01:05:00.000+08:00

coincidence.......

plain coincidence?

how can it possibly be?

can something like that really happen?

tell me that this never happened.

tell me its all a dream and that i would wake up to find everythings ok.

why?

why must an innocent girl be hurt this way?

why must they leave her at the same time?

why is she abandoned with her brother?

monday
6+7+2007
man
died of heart attack

thursday
9+7+2007
woman
unknown reason of death

other victims:

guy
28
girl
14

brother and sister, sister and brother.
their age gap of 14 years.
they don't have a choice.
jus live with it.
showered with pity and sympathy
i wonder how it feels?
don't want to feel it though,
the price is too high for me to pay
tell me, someone, tell me how to help them survive?

#33

2007-08-08T17:37:00.000+08:00

ahhh....

quick post before i bathe.....

hmmm...

happenings...

went to sch empty handed. everything was in my pocket. saw jia sheng and followed him up to class. did a maths question on de board and den went down for de parade. erm... quite boring. quite similar to the real NDP. charmaine looked as if she's nvr seen de parade b'fore.

after parade went to watch de filling up of soil for 5 trees. climbed 5 storeys and continued to do math when mr lim came to chase us out and watch tree-filling. lolx.

finish already wanted to go bowling at safra but got event and archery only open at 2. end up go eat KFC and play table tennis at char's hse.

#32

2007-08-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

12 dermerit forms are rightfully given out.
hmmm..... that's debatable..... to the people who got it, it is of course unfair to them due to their reasons. to the people who din get it, they say, serves you right. hmmm...... 12 forms. i guess that's alot, given the fuss made about it that is. i shall write a brief account on my thoughts abt it then.
1. i dont understand why must we waste time doing tis. i mean, isn't it supposed to be VOLUNTARY?
2. dosen our china trip already give us days of cip hours?
3. why didn everyone jus turn up for practice so that we don hav to hav prac so many times?
4. if u say u're busy, are you sure you were?
5. why can't ms ng control the class more? she jus resorts to green forms and gives them lik suddenly all at one go. i mean, if u wanna give den u shld do it constantly and not say only for so long den suddenly give and say i already warned u.
6. if you say u noe how to sing the songs already den why weren't most of you singing durin cip? i mean it totally sucked with the fact that we hardly had music.(no offence char but u could only play 3 or 4 songs)
ok so if u can't tell what i typed, i'm not really on anyone's side coz i tink both parties are wrong. oh well, all i can say is that if u don wanna get into trouble, don say anything abt it.

ok other stuff.... i've finally added another column in the blog lol..... i finally brought myself to edit the template. was easier than i expected..... now left with changing the size of the pictures and some other colour changing and minor stuff.....

i tink somone is hacking my com. doubt hackin is the right word but thats the closest i can guess. hmmm.... tink my com is safe for now with de firewall put up by norton but dunno how long it can last..... let's hope that the other party is not smart enough to get through.

oh well going now.
and i pray that all will be well

#31

2007-07-28T17:16:00.000+08:00

hi to any reader or passerby..... doubt there's any though.

ok jus came back frm eating sour sop. hehe yupp after typin one line, my aunt came to visit for a few mins and now she's off to parkway. i must say its been a long time since i've eaten sour sop. tastes a little weird. the texture is quite different frm those u find in de drink. its sort of 'powdery' and juicy, i think. can't really find the words to describe it la.

*sigh*feel really different frm de ppl around me. mainly refering to charmaine. hehe.... i think we're lik north and south poles of the earth or smth. oh ya.... its polar opposites. perhaps it sort of neutralises us this way sort of, only that i somehow don wanna be curbed back so i'm lik pulling her along in what i do.

tis been a long time since i really sat back to think abt why things are going the way it is. somehow i was left or actually, i started sweeping the floor during cca time yesterday while the others packed the store room and cupboard. left alone, my mind started to wander and i started to ask myself many questions. such as why was i sweeping de floor? why did i volunteer to do so? why do i feel so lonely once i'm not in a near range with someone i noe? why did all these questions come up only when i'm in this sch and not when i was younger? why?

somehow, i arrived at the answer to my loneliness. i had rarely been on the receiving end of listening to problems. i've been the one blurting out my troubles to anyone who would listen all day long since young. during my kindergarten years, my parents. my primary one years, my parents and Nora. my primary two and four to six years, madeliene. my primary three to six years, my parents and Huiying, though not so much to HY during the last two years. my sec one years siewann and now charmaine.

charmaine is in a way different coz our relationship is more balanced in the telling and listening. i guess that's why i feel different with her than with the others

#30

2007-07-21T17:59:00.000+08:00

Had a runny nose in the morning..... I cried myself to sleep last night.... I know what I did wrong, why she scolded me...... But, is it truely all my fault........? Am I the only one to blame?
Ballet Under The Stars..... BUTS for short...... A beautiful, graceful and relaxed performance...... However, there was no music....... to me at least...... My heart was filled with sorrow for an innocent friend...... Was it a misunderstanding in her case? I wonder..... Maligned would be most suitable from what I know...... The lively movements of the dancers have become a heart-wrenching dance..............

deathnote:15<

#29

2007-07-14T18:23:00.000+08:00

deathnote :12-14

hehe jus to keep track on de shows....

#28

2007-07-09T14:42:00.000+08:00

hihi!
short post here. currently in com lab. tis DNT. mr tay let us play with de tablet. damn cool. i want one. ltr 2.50 goin for wakeboarding at punggol. haha... gonna wear swimming costume + swim shirt. haha. char's gonna kill me.

lots of ppl goin for archery. tink its at safra tampinese. rock climbing is at west coast, furthest of all.

tink i'm gonna edit de format of de blog. make three columns. see first la..... i'll be playing guess and check again as usual...

ok gtg now.

#27

2007-07-07T17:18:00.000+08:00

hey!
long time nvr post liaoz..... hmmm.... truth be told, blogs now aren't really used as 'online diaries' some are for ads and others, a free web add. isn't it true? oh wells.... someone pls comment on de new blog skin pls? i can't think of how else to improve it..... ya and i havent changed de font colour....

kinda sad wen wen din reply my email.... shall go check it again now.

ok i'm back.... haix no reply.... forgot to ask zhu yun how to sms to china..... yes i noe it maybe easy but still wanna double check.

watched a play last night titled 老九. it's a touchin story and some parts a bit frightening..... the audiences enjoyed de cursing most of all i think. only one bad pharse was used by de father. the cursing has aso caused laughter even during de sadest scene, the climax of de show.

finished a quiz at web.tickle.com it says tat my sense of humour is satire. so, can someone tag and tell me wat is satire humour? i mean there isnt a point in doin that quiz if i don understand de answer rite?

*sigh* there isn't much to post now. hmmm..... jus can't tink of wat to say...... oh ya! new activity going on in sch. it's called Go Sports something something. anyway, i wanted inline skating, rock climbing and wake boarding and was prepared to rank bowling de last of all my options as i found it boring. but alas! my parents wanted me to put bowling as first choice so that i won't waste money de nxt time we go bowling. anyway, i got my mum to sign de form before i filled it in. here's how i finally ranked the sports:
1-wakeboarding
2-inline skating
3-rock wall climbing
4-archery
5-bowling
so, bowling is still de last. we got our conformation letters last week. at least most of us. some said dey din get de letter. tink they're 'doomed'. first lesson starts nxt mon. oh wells wish dem gd luck. i got into wakeboarding with char, huifeng and godwin. wonder who else is in? venue for our sport is somewhere in punggol i tink, sch providing transportation so i can't really be bothered. looking forward to it in any case. told my mum one gd thing abt wakeboarding is tat we hav one lesson less than the other sports, as in de course is one lesson shorter.

oh well going off now so bye!

#26

2007-06-30T16:32:00.000+08:00

back to blog!
haha long time no post..... dosen really matter anyway nobody reads de posts :)

while doin art hw which was to find pics, i chanced on tis 'flirting' page. read it out of curiosity and ended up laughing lik xiao. damn funny. it shouldn be 'tips' it should be 'jokes' lols. it makes a person sound super despo la..... literally those scenes u find in tv shows.

hahaz now i noe where those script writers get their inspiration from. seriously i doubt these 'advise' will work coz its jus lame crapp lor......

i'm getting lots of extra photos for art coz some ppl sure nvr go find one.... will try to be nice and donate some photos.

i love de new skinbut de color of de words not nice leh... hiax ltr go stare at codes liao.... de last time couldn't figure out.....

oh welllllllllls bye! remember to tag

#25

2007-06-22T15:46:00.001+08:00

putting up a short notice for my own reference hehe....

deathnote#9-#14
getbackers{to be updated later}

ok done. post with few words to remind myself where i stopped watchin these two animes.......

#24

2007-06-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

heyssssss!
hahas... replyin tags here. jus finish typin den smth went wrong so re-typin de replys

[tracy]--- eh.... i'm updating now and can u type yr name instead?
<'mum'>---hehe.... i tink it sounds nice 'mum' its ok.... i noe u'll be loyal to KFC YUMM!
[wei]--- hahaz who are u?
[stingray]---haha... jus can't imagine u likin a girl lolx. even if i have crush aso will change after some time wat....
[siying]---ha! i aso jus found out, takecare!

there. ok not tat many taggs la but come on.... hardly anyone comes here..... its a miracle tat ppl actually tagg..... guess i'll be changing skin soon...... probably will do de normal type though still don really understand how it works hehe.... shall try to perservere :) wish me good luck.....

pris is fast in uploading photos.... she's de only one who upload pics of suntec into her blog de rest of us din bother hehes..... tried de quiz abt our class. jus passed. 50/100 lols. haix... shows tat i don noe de class well enough :( bet everyone is thikin of chionging their homework but not actually doin it.... oh wells who's so hardworking anyway?

wow. typed so fast.... lolx. hmmmm...... not type just tat i happen to tink faster. oh ya! jus now went parkway shop shop before going home den saw tis guy editin some photos at de photo shop. shld see de rate he work sia. damn fast. open de photo only noe what to change n where to click. his mind works fast sia.

was watchin the deathnote anime jus now. must say de shinigami is damn cute despite its looks. lolx. light is a little crazy though. jus got that weird attitude must be too stressed being top and parents must have brain washed him abt good and evil when he was young that's why he wanna get rid of de criminals lols. haha a theory tat makes no sense. only watched 5 episodes but kinda pity his dad.

oh well tracy is tis enough crapp for u? wait till de nxt post if it ain't. =p
bye!^^

eh.... post is edited. i just found out that cannot use de <> bracket....

#23

2007-06-10T22:41:00.001+08:00

heeeeeeeeeeeellllllllllllllllllooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...................................

bad mood now...... feelin sad. mum jus found out tat i din do tuition hw. oh wells. now probably don needa do maths project liaoz. she's suspectin tat i'm goin char's hse to play. can hear her on de phone. ok la kinda understand y she suspect. itwas supposed to be char's b'day party but coz no one goin tat's y change to do project. oh wells, hope for de best. gonna get scolding ltr. wish me gd luck. =(

went bowling jus now. got de first 2 strikes of my life. lols.... no exclamation marks now..... too sad. yupp, believe it.

ok gettin scolded now. haix............ expecting it................... sister aso sharing de scoldin so maybe not so bad?

back to bowlin.... played 4 games. 2 strikes. made my sister damn jealous and angry. her cca is bowlin but lost to me. =p sad. wat can i say? but all de games i play by luck one la.

nth much more to say.....

told my mum smth abt waitin to die. haha. she din lik de sound of it. shall share it here:

our whole life is a long wait for death.
though u may tink tat it's a pessimistic thought, it's quite true. all the studying and working and enjoyment u hav during life is, in a sense smth u can do to pass time while waiting. i'll give u an eg. ever been to disney land? u'll realise tat there are many things to see and keep u occupied while queueing for de ride so much so tat u won't really feel lik yr waitin. life is a well planned wait. u'll hardly get bored with yr emotions keeping u occupied and it's hard to realise u're actually waiting.

ok times up gotta go liaoz.

#22

2007-06-07T18:50:00.000+08:00

hey!
haha. only person tagging is jo... lols thx anyway! haix gotta feelin my blog's kinda 'private' as in so little ppl come tat i can sorta type out my greatest secret(or smth lik tat) n no one'll noe until a long time ltr. hahax. luckily nvr put counter. i'll probably see de number increase by only 1 or 2 when i check. (1 is by me) haix.....

thought of smth abt thinkin heheh...
i'll use mathematical terms to explain it.(forgive me if u fail to understan my way of phrasing i hav already tried to edit it)
it all starts with a topic, then u expand on the thoughts abt it den u sorta 'factorise' it to make it easier to explain to somebody. haha. at least tat's what i do. so now i noe why others hav to type or say so much to get their message across while i finish explaining de entire idea within a shorter message. there are pros and corns though..... some ppl may need a longer more detailed explaination whereas some are able to link de first point to de other. and so, i hav finally understood why i usually cannot understand de teachers when dey elaborate more on a certain formula or law(sci) its b'coz instead of understanding, i will get confused by de details given to me as i will try to remember all de details when only de formula is important.

i don't understand what i'm typin but hope whoever reads it does hehe.

oh well i'm goin for dinner now. may post again ltr =)

#21

2007-06-01T02:18:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!!!!!
heyya!
back frm beijing. it totally rocks. will miss de trip lots. shall type what i can remember happened here.
~got lost at the great wall of china with char, hm n yvon coz took cable car
~AH, JY n godwin were lost too, they took some other ride
~wenjie was left at de fashion street when he went toilet(aso lost)
~meal times were great(damn funny)
~shen zhen, kang lei bought soldier's cap(?) n zhu ge liang fan
~lost my money
~play tai di almost everynite
~panda looked lik kkh
~kkh n deon formed a heart shape when dey slp
~godwin slpt in our room for 3 nites (yvon n me took turns to slp in char's room coz of him)
~wen wen is vry pretty(buddy)
~dey hav birds, deer n sheep in their sch
~students stay in hostel for weekdays
~jia hong is the tea pourer
~always buyin sprite
~kkh splash 'holy' water on JY to wake her up in de mornin
~jiahong wake godwin up vry fierce
~godwin deleted de video of kkh whacking his butt
~godwin lost his pants
~AH, JY yvon n me share room in de 2nd hotel
~4 to 1 toilet in de 2nd hotel
~yvon cried twice durin trip
~hotel scared us by askin us to change room(lucky haven pack)
~LH is accident prone in plane
~AH buddy (sheng nan) looks lik guy
~godwin slp lik gal
~yvon slp lik guy
~breakfast not nice
~play tai di all de time
~kkh was dared to tell JY
kh"i want to rape u now"
JY"orh......"
kh"can?"
JY"no"
JY ltr asked me what kh said. she was only half listenin
~bought many imitation goods.
~busy copyin lyrics of song 'tong nian' at nite
~shen zhen barge into our room-yvon n i scream

ok tat's all i can currently tink of so bye!

#20

2007-05-21T16:26:00.000+08:00

heyo!

feelin happy. today is a good day. yays! hahax. almost late for sch. supposed to leave hm before 6.30 but today left at 6.40. scared would miss de bus but luckily bus ltr den me. :) anyways jus feel damn happy.

#19

2007-05-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

yo!
hahaz posted at ting en's blog. felt damn lame. post at other ppl's blog. maybe just unused. hehes.... haix..... nvr post after exam. first few days after exam super busy. here's a general report:
thurs: finish maths exam, go TM buy ingredients for tang yuan with Char, HuiMin, TingEn and LiHui. char and hm buy slippers den we go buy shirt for china. finally bought a shirt frm this fashion. wanted to watch movie but LH would fall aslp so went Char's hse to watch 'jus follow law' n 'lik mike' had lots of laughter.

fri: slack in sch de whole day. some mini-olympics thingy den we don hav anything to do. so char, hm n me went to hav recess, den went library to play com, help de dentist while waitin for coach daniel. din get to see him in de end. went to "orhh...." deon with TE. damn funny and deon becum xtra pressurized. lol. char n HM were catchin sec1s to dentist durin tis time.

sat: hahaz.... flag day. slack one lor. go simei take attendance some din come but i aso lazy to wait so jus pretend forgot abt dem :P de gals totally spilt up. i got stuck with yvonne..... proceded to bugis. called pris and found out she was there too. lols. great minds think alike. sis came to find me. helped me collect donations for a while. for some weird reason she n yvonne keep stickin together. she was tryin to hit 20 sticker quota to get ice-cream frm yvon. we slack alot. sell one paper eat breakfast, sell 2nd sheet eat lunch, finish 3rd sheet go walk walk in de shoppin centre. oh and yvon kena birdshit on her shirt yuck! i mus be lucky sia. was standin at tat vry spot a while earlier.

sun: woke up early to make tang yuan for mother's day. sis helped. de soup was jus nice yays! den went to pray. saw a huge dog bout 1meter high. den went to roller blade and swim. buy dinner at 85 to uncle's hse for dinner.

ya tat's all gotta slp liaos tata......

#18

2007-04-27T15:37:00.000+08:00

hey hey!
actually posted when i changed de skin but forgot to post it and closed. let's hope i remember to publish tis one. hehe.

compo was yesterday too! haha i tink everything went quite well. kh was chionging his paper jus to get 1hr of slp. aiya..... we had lik 1hr break wat, can slp durin tat time mah..... break time don rest den exam time slp.... somehow doesen make sense to me. aft chi compo i brought char n hm to a coffee shop near sch but not 85. char complain lik hell coz it was quite far, or so she said. to me feels quite normal coz i go home by tat way. den after tat she ran all de way back to sch in order not to be late for coach daniel's appointment. haha i strolled far behind her and shouted instructions to her to get back to sch.

met char at the relac room and listen to coach daniel counsel her den ltr help her buy food. hmmm...... how to say leh, its lik when go there den u'll learn lot's of stuff u never really paid attention to. lik say minor things lik, not daring to look out of de window at night coz u're afriad of lik ghosts or somthin. its lik ppl don usually tink much abt tat kinda stuff coz it jus seems natural. tinkin of being a counsellor when i grow up but de pay lik not so good lehs. apparently i lik to buy expensive stuff and bla bla bla den dunno whether can cope with a low salary.

now watchin get backers typin when it loads haha. keep forgettin wich ep i stop at. haix tink i hav short term memory. coach daniel says tats makes a good listener but i don tink its good for exams. anyway love all anime i've watched so far. not a lot la jus inuyasha, shaman king, UFO baby, Getbackers and i tink tat's all. hahax. love all of them. somehow anime better than comics coz it shws out all de action.

oh well better post now before mum comes home. tata! and will u ppl please TAG?! thx....

#17

2007-04-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

yoness
long time no blog liaoz. haha deon put up a baby photo in our class blog so diaoed. i don lik tis new skin, tink i'm gonna change it yup again. hahax. syf is finally over. we got bronze. not vry good la but still vry happy its over. the fruit of our effort wat, all mistakes forgiven in tat dance. haha. worst result in sch. hopefully the other dance will get better grades. our whole cca depends on dem. hahaz. band got silver and CO, guitar and choir all got gold with/out honours.

haiz class gals got lots of probs leh. for some weird reason. i've come to realise how narrow minded ppl in de world are. its basically de advanced version of "i don friend u any more" haix. second victim le. i wonder who's de third? 100% not me i tink, its lik i don care at all one lor. i guess i jus expect ppl to leave my side sooneror later so i don really bother.

hmmm...... hav some really unhappy stuff now la but don wanna tell anyone. i feel lik a loner. feel lik, there's no one who is close to me, close enough for me to tell de person everything. and i also feel lik i'm wearin a mask, wearing it so often until i don noe what i really feel. showing ppl wat is not me until even i don't noe who i am. freakin. i don even trust myself enough to let my emotions flow when i'm alone coz i'm afriad i can't keep it back in time if someone sees me. who do i tink i am? hate de mask, its an ugly mask i'm wearin. i detest my attitude but why do i continue tis way? i don't noe someone, tell me......................

#16

2007-03-31T17:45:00.000+08:00

hey! i changed skin. its a bit irritating ok maybe not a bit but very irritating. i mean, i hav to scroll all the way up to read the posts. oh well i'll see wat i can do abt it la..... comment on the ew skin ok? tink i'll continue looking for another one. doubt tis will remain for long. too irritating :) hmmm.... does de lay out look complicated? i tot it did but de codes are really vry easy. i still find the layouts without linkage more difficult :)
now super busy with all de studying and competition. ai ya sian.....
byez going now

#15

2007-03-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

yo! constant posting for 2 days. i haven beat tis record before lol. really no time to blog 3 days in a row. maybe coz i type slow la. can take 1hr to type a post.

been to tracy's blog jus now and read abt her havin mixed feelings abt art class. really reminded me of wat happened last year and also another theory of feelings.

actually we are constantly havin mixed feelings except that usually its more minor lik dosen really mean much or sometimes come in de form of temptation. maybe its coz of puberty tat gals will becum more sensitive to feelings and such.(sry can't include guys coz i dunno whether guys go through tis) and so its lik what u would nvr mind when u were young, lik if yr best friend becomes another person's best friend but still treats u de same, u would mind it a lot when u are older coz for some weird reason u feel tat someone has snatched yr best friend and u'll feel jealous. ya so i guess stuff lik tat happens in all situations.

hmmm...... so how does tis link to puberty? well, puberty is basically yr hormones "acting up" it changes us both physically and mentally. though i don't noe how it changes our mentality but i can assure u one thing, when your mentality changes, all yr aspects to life's events will change. came up with a line last year during de "mixed feelings period" :

puberty changes mentality, mentality changes everything.

its a change everyone has to go through and its aso probably one of de largest changes too.

freedom aso plays a great role in changing a person's character. for eg, u can turn frm a good little girl hu always does her hw to a gangster who beats her parents up for money. these above 2 kinds of ppl though are polar opps but it is still possible for de first girl to become de nxt. why? its because of de sudden change in mentality for de need of more freedom and how much freedom is given to satiafy that need. if u give too little freedom, de teenager may become rebellious, however if u give too much, de teenager will use it all and may engage in gangsterism due to excessive hanging out. if too much freedom is given at one go, we would be lost as to wat to do with it and will therefore perhaps under friends' influence go out to play daily. i mean how many ppl can resist de temptation of playing and slacking when suddenly presented with so much freedom? even some adults don't hav de discipline to settle down half de time to work not to mention younger teens. so u see? freedom aso plays a large role in changing a person.

one of de worst things for me is that my parents gave me more freedom when i was going though puberty, a time when we are kinda mentally unstable. hmmm..... can say tat i was lucky tat my friends din really go out durin tat period of time so i wasn led astray? hahaz.

thx to tracy hu brought the topic up for me. reminded me of wat happened last year and though i tot i knew wat hit me at tat point in time, i realised i didn as i typed out tis post coz there were a lot of loopholes as to why this and that will watever and will also think of how it links up. ya so please comment on my posts kae? byez!

#14

2007-03-09T21:38:00.000+08:00

yo! finally posting hahaz. not tat din use com jus tat too busy with de new skin. yup i`m changin de skin again :) hahaz i find de skin damn cool. hmmm.... lik `simple yet sophisticated` lol. jus edited it a bit here and there before putting it up. though its not gonna be up anytime soon i tink. :) i`m terrible with de codings. always delete too much or forget to copy out smth. *sigh* dosen matter anyway its my blog so wat can u do? :p

ok comments on stress level. tink stress shldn't be judged by de problem or a person's reaction to it or watever else. in a way, i tink it shld be compared lik say a problem over tat person's tolerance level. it's something lik maths and science formulas. lets say the higher de number de bigger de prob/higher tolerance level.

A：tolerace lvl;6
prob;3
:.prob takes up 1/2 of tolerance
B:tolerance lvl;12
prob;4
:.prob takes up 1/3 of tolerance
:. although person b's probs are more than person a, but person a is sort of more poor thing coz she/he is more stressed if u get wat i mean.

hmmm...... ya another thing is tat u usually cannot compare yr probs with others coz yr probs will always seem worse. i mean seriously, when u hav de problem, u'll noe all its bad points and will not be able to tink of anything tat is better than another person's probs. u will however, tink tat u rather hav de other person's problems coz its not happenin to you and u r able to tink of a million reasons why de other person is better off than you.

for example, a married woman who is unhappy with her husband may envy those women hu are being divorced frm de husband. whereas a woman hu is abt to be divorced may envy those women who are though unhappy but still with their husband.

its smth lik tat though de second example has some loop holes. another shorter way of sayin it is tat grass is always greener on the other side. we will always feel lik our probs are bigger than others.

ok i've typed quite a bunch already still need to read over de post nxt time coz i type until i aso blur. some parts may contradict so tell me but don lik say already den forget abt it. it's kinda good for critical tinkin skills. at least tat's wat i tink. i mean u can't possibly live yr whole life out rememberin facts. u hav to hav opinion rite? and i feel tat opinion shldn't be jus a last min thought. it shld be lik say, listenin to others views and den come up with wat u tink and perhaps look at some experiences to compare yr views and wat de experience taught u. if de 2 things contradict den de better, for its den tat u can think it through why they contradict and u may aso change yr opinion of de subject.

ya i tink tat's all i've got to type. one subject will naturely lead to another and after a while u won't be able to remember wat u were talkin abt in de first place. and tis aso leads me on to say more haha. tis continuation of conversation is aso known as digression a word i jus learned tis year. ya i noe, tat's how bad my eng is :p and i know of 3 really good digressers. sheena, ms lam and ME. yup! me me me! i'm super good at digressing. i don't noe la, its kind of how i remember stuff. i jus link everything up together so tat one point leads to another and therefore will digress during a conversation.

lol. i've said my salutations twice already. wonder if this'll be the third time. i mean u'll noe when u see de post but i'm typin now and god noes how much longer i'm gonna type. remember to tag ok? oh well its damn late or shld i say early now so goodnite to you if u're readin tis at nite. oh and wish me happy b'day coz its my b'day today :) wish me lots of luck too coz i don tink i hav enough tis year.

it started out bad enough with de changin of classes and de hospitalisation and most of all pat wong. some say its coz de class feng shui no good face clock tower. actually clock tower in chinese aso dosen sound vry nice 钟楼 sounds lik some deathly place plus de ghost stories..... creepy. there was a blackout at tower hall when we had dance prac last week. den coz we happened to be standin on de stage den its super dark thereand after lik 2 secs some gals suddenly screamed wich scared me but luckily din make me scream. scary sia. i'm scared of screams lor. it gives me de creeps for some weird reason. oh well digressed again. din i say before tat i'm a good digresser? well now u noe:) oh wellz slpy le don wanna type le gdnite! remember to tag!

#13

2007-02-24T16:31:00.000+08:00

haha yesterday jus posted. hmmm..... din really go into detail yesterday la. don tink i'll bother. anyways i'm gettin fedup with tis skin always get stuck. so guess what? i'm changin it again. yup yup yup. AGAIN. hahaz. tinkin of black background and lik jus copy format of something and de rest shall be done by mua. haha. tis also means that i'll get really giddy comparing de preview and de codings. unfortunately i am not those kind of ppl who can imagine the blogskin jus by looking at the codes soo..... ya. oh well gonna look for more formats den can change skin. i tink i wanna tackle de none 'hyperlink' one. it looks more challenging somehow. ya tat's all and pls TAG. my tag boards damn dead. chatter box keep threatenin to delete my tag board if i don tag. bla bla. even if jus type hi aso can. at least may save de board from being deleted. ok speechless now so BYEZ! oh and happy Chinese New Year.

#12

2007-02-23T19:52:00.000+08:00

yo!
feeling vry emo now . lol. jus talked to coach daniel. nice person la. first time i talked to a counsellor. haha charmaine fell asleep half way and only woke up when benedict came in. hmmm....... the coach needed someof our point of view for parent teacher conference so we went there to crap la. den while charmaine was asleep daniel said that i was errr.... ok i forgot but something lik 'responsible'. ya so wateva. haha daniel also said that it was de first time someone fell asleep while talking to him. you broke de record charmaine! hahaz. no la juz that when i talk to him den will start tinkin of all de probs that i hav den he sorta explain some stuff to us from a parents POV.

ya and another thing i found out is that benedict is a vry gd story teller. really lor. he told us wat happened to kkh and it was so damn interesting. haha get well soon kaihong. second person in class to go hospital. guess who was first? ME! haha lol. went in coz i had gastrosomething.... forgot called wat ler. haha but kaihong's discharged today so stayed there for 2 days? i stayed for 4days. haha. admittedlast monday morning at lik 2 or 3 am. my sickness was basically dehydration due to vomiting and diahorrea. was put on drip. hahaz. ok maybe nth funny la. vry borin lor stay in hosp nth to do.

hmmm.... another funny thing. i thought of kaihong every day in de hosp. coz i was in kk hospital den dey printed kkh on de bed sheets and pillow covers so always reminded of him. lol. oh and benedict seems to noe everything la lik who has wat problems.... hell..... hahaz nvm. noe aso cannot do anything. ya tats all cya nxt time! :)

#11

2007-02-11T16:14:00.000+08:00

hi hi!
really miss bloggin too bad my phone dosen hav internet access if not can post more. tink i'm either gonna change skin or edit it until u can't recognise it. most likely will change la coz i don really like de base of de blog.

ya den now vry busy stay back almost everyday. monday and tuesday hav show and tell prac, wed got class time, thurs and fri got cca. den even weekends also not so free. sat got show and tell prac, sun got tuition and golf. sighs.... its worse than sec1.

our class doin couple dance. sorry can't help it coz i hav to say it sux. haha phrasing problem shld say tat i don lik coule dance tat's why it sux. :) i don noe la. i find tat it kinda makes 2 ppl stay away from each other? guess u can call it reverse psychology. its coz lik when u ask 2 ppl to dance together, somehow or other it'll result in constant teasing by others and de 2 ppl who perhaps were originally friends would start to 'keep away' from each other in hope of preventing more teasing, which usually will back fire and cause more teasing. ya basically lik tat. *sighs* why can't we be more normal and do hip hop or skit bla bla bla..... i mean D doesent stand for Creative or Special or Outstanding wat.

oh well i'm wishin time would go faster so tat we can get this damn dance over and done with coz there are quite a few really lame couples comin up. like say i heard from yvonne tat someone teased her and javier. i tell u tat's seriously not a good pair. really lor.... i mean jus b'coz dey dancin together den u match dem up and its like forced one can? worst thing is tat i'm in de front row :( best dancing couples so far will be huilu, godwin, qinhui, sheena. javier also quite okay, while me, yvonne and deon always lag or blur diao. i rather dance de guys part lor its so easy other than de carry part. i can remember their steps better than mine. i guess its falls under the catergory where we remember wat is not important and forget wat is important.

whoa long time never type such a long post ler. feels so cool to type so much and let off a lot of stress. i tink i'm better at writin down wat i feel but den always lazy to find pen and paper. dunno leh its lik de more u type de more stuff u tink abt rather than talking and den either de person remembers something and also starts talking or de person gets super irritated with u. when u blog however, de other party can choose whether or not to read yr post so u don't irritate dem in a way.

ya so much crapp in one day. byez for now tink u'll hav to wait long long for another post tis long....

#10

2007-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

hi!
changed blog skin. ya bit flowery. i'll edit some parts in the time to come i guess. hahaz. can't play so much com now :( wat ever. miss 1c-ians. SYF comin up so more busy. don tink can make time for other stuff la so too bad for bear. he said want gatherin. maybe durin june hols? oh wells, jia you 1c-ians tink everyone wants to get together soon :)

#9

2007-01-13T17:25:00.000+08:00

hihi
finished postin at class blog hahaz may visit 2D blog ltr. really miss 1c-ians back to de topic we were talkin abt before sch ended. mdm yellow rox. i mean ok she din do a vry good job in teachin us but it was her who made the whole class bonded lik say pon remedial together, copy hw, gettin de whole class in trouble. don care abt anything and we hav to explain some stuff as a whole class for her to understand. still remember beginning of sch den when the teacher come in for self intro, de first question will always be 'wat is yr age?' haha standard question.

sad la i saw tis chi doc den she want me to quit dance. den yesterday i told my mum i don wanna see de doc anymore coz i still wanna dance, its vry expensive, my parents keep remindin me to make up my mind, SYF commin soon and because its very painful when dey try to loosen de muscle. i mean i was screamin my lungs out when dey massage the muscle. i used up 5 pieces of tissue paper for cryin when i went there. it was physical torture. ya so after i told my mum she totally ignored me. she said she was disappointed in me. but i don get it. why pay so much for de doc to push my muscle, and i don even noe whether she can heal my back or not. i mean, whose muscle remains loose forever? i don noe la but ever since i met tis doc, i feel very restricted. lik a lot of stuff cannot do. now i cancelled my treatment, my mum practically treats me as invisible.

i really miss de time before i had this illness. i was free to do anything i wanted. really feel caged up within myself. and i think i've got a bit of depression. its lik i feel as if no one loves or cares for me.

oh well maybe i'll sort myself out ltr. gotta go complete hw.

#8

2007-01-02T11:28:00.000+08:00

heys!
i'm back from thailand. it was some last minute planning. we booked de tickets on err.... wednesday nite and hotel tickets on thursday nite and went there on friday nite. sooo.... systematic rite? hahaz. i went bankok. yup, de place where there was 9 bombings at least shld be 9 if i'm not wrong. quite a few were near my hotel but luckily i din get blasted. it kinda reminds me of de Trogen Horse(forgot how to spell can some one tell me?) its lik every one is celebrating new year drinkin and let down their guard den de bombs come and attack dem.

another thing which is aso my new year resolution, i have decided to tink abt topics wich pop up in my head instead of tinkin of a subject to tink abt. lame rite? hahaz. decided not to strain my brain so much.

something for u ppl to tink abt if u even read my posts. do u believe in hmmm..... destiny? de type lik yr life is totally planned out before u were born? yup tat type if u don den don bother readin de rest. if our life was planned out before us den wat's wrong with steading at tis age? i mean it was probably 'pre-planned' for u to go through tis experience. ya so tink abt it....

lots to say little to type so bye bye!

#7

2006-12-26T11:16:00.000+08:00

yay postin!
merry x'mas everyone! ok, i'm one day late :) who has microphone at home? de type tat can connect to com and call others? i jus bought one den dunno why it dosn work. i already install la so don give me dumb advise lik: did u install it into yr msn? i'm not tat dumb ok?

oh well.... i haven't finished homework yet. not planning to do it until mum comes back i guess. she went tm tis mornin. haha. at least i'm confident of finishin everythin other than my english by de end of tis week.

changed a new skin coz i found it cute. de headings are a little harder to fit coz i don really use cute skins hahaz. usually use attitude or love ones. ya actually i don really lik tis skin but dunno why still go and put it. oh wells. maybe will change it soon. ^_^

byez! gonna find some stuff for de blog.

#6

2006-12-20T12:56:00.000+08:00

back from camp!
supposed to break camp yesterday but teacher don allow us to stay one more nite. sighs. de camp was fun. de bad thing was tat we were supposed to choreograph a dance for farewell party so we had to practice all de time as ong as we hav free time. our song was "my humps" sian la listen to tat song lik 20 times a day? i was rackin my brains for moves for de dance. i was totally tired of tinkin after de first day so left de rest of de choreographing to peak deng. ya din noe choreographing was so hard. annia aso did a lot. hahax she was so nice and cool. XD

byes i noe its abrupt but who cares? no one checks anyway. :( wateva la. remember to tag when u come already.

#5

2006-12-14T15:38:00.000+08:00

jing hiang i lov you!nah, i'm not a les. jus tat she jus gave me an answer i couldn't get no matter how long i thought.

its abt trust. yes its kinda weird lik wat's there to tink of abt trust. apparently, to me trust used to be lik physical. lik i trust u to return me my money after i lend u or somthing lik tat. den ltr a friend told me tat she was upset coz her close friend din trust her as much any more and i couldn't understand why she was so upset. to me its lik tell den tell, don tell den don tell lor. i may feel upset but its bcoz i'm curious to noe wat it is and not bcoz lik u dun trust me with it. went with jing hiang to tm for lunch den she told me dat she was happy tat her bro trusted her and told her secrets. i couldn't understand at first and she explained to me tat it somehow brings ppl closer when dey share stuff and each others tinkin. ya. and now i finally understand why my friend was so upset when her close frind did not trust her as much any more.

another thing we spoke abt is tat her older bro used to hurt her when she was young and i tink i'm doin tat to my sis. i mean, i don hav any older siblings so i din noe i was hurtin my sis. jing told me how her bro hurt her and i found out tat i aso did some of those things to my sis. so maybe its lik de older sibling hurt de younger one subconciously. for example i din noe tat i was hurtin my sis by lik quarrellin with her every day and other stuff lik tat.

jing hiang really taught me lots of stuff today and really wanna thank her coz being an older sister, i dun noe how my sis really feels and jing hiang being a younger sister noes how it feels and can tell me what my younger sis really feels.

lots of thanks to jing hiang :) and tats all la so tata!

#4

2006-12-13T15:08:00.000+08:00

hey hey!
haha came back from dance. had class chalet on mon and yesterday. we checked in on monday. got there by public bus coz de shuttle can only carry a max of 10 ppl and there were 16 of us. everyone complained haha. de chalet was big! got 3 bedrooms, living room, kitchen, 2 toilets, 2 balconies connected to 2 of de bedrooms. hahax. guys got one room and gals 2 rooms. de rooms are creepy when de lights aren't on. mostly becoz of de cupboard and de balcony door. i din stay over but heard tat dey all slept together. yupp, guys and gals, all 12 of dem. at least shld be 12. i was shocked when i saw de guys bed empty, as in de mattress was gone, when i went there yesterday. den found out that all de beds, blankets and pillows were moved to kw room. de guys were de only ppl left last nite so dey'll hav to carry all de furniture back. :P

dance was a lot better today. maybe i was less tired and everyone cooperated and that lao shi din get soo angry. after tat went parkway with shermaine and her sis to eat lunch. we went popular and MPH. i lost another water bottle today durin dance :X hehe. bought ice lemon tea after tat haha.

a lot of ppl ask me tis when dey wanna talk to me: who are u? hahax. sounds dumb to me but den again there's a good reason for dem to ask coz my whole family uses my msn. lol. ya but don be fooled by my sis. she'll sometimes pretend to be me. hahax. a lot of ppl can't tell de diff from both of us. qian hua and bao yi say tat she's mature for her age. hmmm...... maybe i influence her too much. really wish i had an older sibling instead of a younger one. coz lik tat den can act cute and get everything u want. kiddin. don tink tat'll happen. jus tat older siblings probably won bug u soo much only tat maybe parents will compare more.

jus realised somthing, my best friend or very good friends love playin pokemon. weird ain't it? i thought most ppl won play it anymore. oh wells, i don mind hahax. those monsters are quite cute anyway.

goin now. my sis wants to play pokemon crater. she's another "pokemon fanatic".

#3

2006-12-09T18:05:00.000+08:00

heys!
changed skin. not my choicecoz i deleted de previous one by accident. lots of bad stuff has been happening to my blog. oh well, i jus love tis skin. still gotta edit a bit more especially de links. love inuyasha. first anime i watched. haha. i'm only watchin my third anime 'get backers' not bad. haha those ppl have 'super powers' but are not lik super heros. de characters aren't really handsome or anythin though ginji isreally cute when dey draw him cartoonish. haha. damn cute me and my sis love him in tat form.

oh well gotta go soon. tag your blogs please. and i shall repeat it again in caps coz some ppl jus don't read posts. PLEASE TYPE OUT YR BLOG'S ADDRESS OKAY? there, u guys should see it now :)

#2

2006-12-04T18:03:00.000+08:00

ok, second pot today. dunno y jus feel lik typin. haven finish linkin yet la but feelin lazy. maybe will do another day. tis if gonna be filled with perhaps mo stuff and full of mood swings so ignore tis post coz mostly crapp. but den again there are only 2 posts including tis one so too bad for you if u don wanna read. however, de purpose of u for commin here is to read my post. so there! dosen tat give u a reasonto read it? oh well doesen quite make sense but u'll understand it after readin it again a few times. lol. too lazy to change it.

*sigh* it seems lik after all these changes at de beggining of de year, my whole life has changed. i'll now list out de things tat hav changed. my hse, my sch, my friends, my tinkin, de attitude of de ppl around me, my attitude to others, my results, u see, almost everything.

my relation ship with my parents used to be lik smooth and without a hitch and now i'm startin to get irritated with my mum and stuff. i don noe y la. ya perhaps puberty but i din noe tat it'll make u change yr tinkin towards yr parents. i tot it only changes yr tinkin abt de opp sex. bla bla. its really confuses and irritates me to tink of li dislikin my parents but i jus can't help it.

den another thin is tat i find tat i'm less sociable now compared to last time. i dunno if its me or de ppl around me who changed. but i'm gettin less friends than i used to. its lik i only hav 2 options, keep totally to myself or try and accept them for who dey are. i'm on de verge of keepin to myself though, coz i keep insisting tat dey hav AP mentally. i try to prove myself wrong by tryin to stay with dem but de more time i spend with dem, de more i dislike dem. so another line tat is quite true will be : don force yourself to hang around with ppl u dunno coz u'll only make yourself unhappy.

ya as u can see i'm quite depressed now. maybe its because of de hols and i don go out so often. lik usually can go sch and play but now stay at home 7 days a week.maybe i jus needa go out and get some fresh air. i sort of lik tuition now. its lik a place where i can joke and play without my mum around. de bad thing is de work de teacher gives of course. haha

not very long post to me. i expected it to be longer but i've gotta feelin my mum's comin home so bye den

#1

2006-12-04T15:25:00.000+08:00

haha jus created tis new blog so gotta relink and stuff. ahh!!! so regret typin so much in de profile. had to delete de previous blog because of tat. hmm de new skin is quite easy to work with so far. not my fav though. its de best so far la so ya. erm, will u ppl tag please? leave yr blog address behind coz it'll be easier for me to link u all. thx!

ok goin to continue with tis skin now bye!