Friday, October 26, 2007
#36
dear reader,
weird start but i feel that way. walked down 3 or 4 bus stops jus now before taking a bus home. no, i wasn't forced. i jus felt like walking. i thought a lot as i walked. mostly about my feelings. i did not feel exactly lonely but i envied those passerbys with people for company. i wondered why. it was a long time since i had such a long train of thoughts and i think i know why. i walked all the way from school down to the mrt station and from there walked down the street towards the direction of bedok mrt station and only boarded the bus when my legs could not hold out any more. i thought long and hard. it dosen't feel like the last day of school today. life was hectic with the usual dreading of cca. it just doesen't feel lik the last day of school, it just doesen't.
i saw a group of primary school students with their dare devil faces. unafraid of anything. i wonder why.weren't they afraid that they would get a scolding for reaching home so late or causing disturbance to the people at the bus stop? then i realised that they were all aquaintances. so what? u may ask. but i'll tell u that the saying goes that there is power in numbers. they're protected by their friends, giving each other a sense of security. that, i know is something good about numbers. nothing can threaten you.
i lack these.....numbers. no sense of security is given. nevertheless, i feel safe. why? i feel safe. as long as there are humans around me. homosapiens of any kind is enough. parents teach children: don't talk to strangers but strangers too give me a sense of sercurity, sometimes even more than the people whom i know. simply because i don't know them.
weird start but i feel that way. walked down 3 or 4 bus stops jus now before taking a bus home. no, i wasn't forced. i jus felt like walking. i thought a lot as i walked. mostly about my feelings. i did not feel exactly lonely but i envied those passerbys with people for company. i wondered why. it was a long time since i had such a long train of thoughts and i think i know why. i walked all the way from school down to the mrt station and from there walked down the street towards the direction of bedok mrt station and only boarded the bus when my legs could not hold out any more. i thought long and hard. it dosen't feel like the last day of school today. life was hectic with the usual dreading of cca. it just doesen't feel lik the last day of school, it just doesen't.
i saw a group of primary school students with their dare devil faces. unafraid of anything. i wonder why.weren't they afraid that they would get a scolding for reaching home so late or causing disturbance to the people at the bus stop? then i realised that they were all aquaintances. so what? u may ask. but i'll tell u that the saying goes that there is power in numbers. they're protected by their friends, giving each other a sense of security. that, i know is something good about numbers. nothing can threaten you.
i lack these.....numbers. no sense of security is given. nevertheless, i feel safe. why? i feel safe. as long as there are humans around me. homosapiens of any kind is enough. parents teach children: don't talk to strangers but strangers too give me a sense of sercurity, sometimes even more than the people whom i know. simply because i don't know them.
i look upon the moon and stars at 8:06 PM
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon
0 stars were shining bright even without the moon